i cant believe it. life isnt as easy as it seems. its not jus waking up each day till the night and sleeping the time away. its about happiness and sorrow. hope and anticipation. making decisions. its not only about yourself. its about others also which makes everything seem so obscure and difficult. am i coping with life the way it should be? i can only ask myself tat.
where is that motivation to study? i dono and i cant seem to find it. time is running out and i don even seem worried. shit. well i've told myself that i will work super super hard for that few people. yea and i really don wanna let them down for they are part of my life. its hard though and jc life plus all those studying suck totally. sometimes i wonder if studying so much actually proves a point. are we the tools that the govt is making use of to compete with other countries. no doubt we are better but so what? and sometimes it seems that reputation seems impt anywhere and everywhere. quoted from chastity's blog "Minister who visits this blog: 'No lah where got care only about ur grades? We also look at things like your college name... If you're from Raffles, you're definitely it! If you're from Temasek, we'll think about it... If you're from Tampines, you can forget about it. ' yeah tats basically wat i wanna say hahaha.
does everything tats happening to me right now suck? why dont u answer it for me? hahaha.
and ya! i found my twin yesterday. gosh. she's lynette hahaha. chatted with her the whole of yesterday's afternoon and found that everything abt me and her are the same! and we share tis little secret. lol. only we both know hahah. nice meeting you cause u're a nice person!
hahaha. gonna study later at the airport. hope it will b productive. take care!
