i don seem close to my family anymore. a widening gap, awaiting for someone, or something to bridge it. we cant talk anymore, or mayb its me i dono. jokes aside, serious matters we cant seem to settle. mayb yes, with some argument in between. parents had said before that im difficult to communicate with. same thing for me, i find it difficult to communicate with them. the problem probably lies with me! its about 4people under one roof with one having different thoughts, ideas all the time. that one being me, and most of the time they cant seem to understand me. it sucks. and i din talk throughout just now, except answering their qns. tats how it is. hah hope it changes, for the better. it isnt like last time anymore. but hmm screw the old chinese traditions. im jus not for that. mayb i've gone out too much, mayb i shld jus be a good kid and stay at home everyday reading books and watching the news. mayb..
i longed so much for a break, away from this place full of hate, love, rivalry, emotions, and sometimes useless fun and laughter. and finally an opportunity, tat went down the drain like in an instant. n its due to the inability of e @#%^&%#*# agency to find tickets for us. and that it was a time to spend with my family, a time i waited so long for.. owells im going to look for a JOB tis monday. yes i will
the deviated outcast of the fam. am i?
hah.im sad
