darren.

2011-07-21T15:21:00.003+08:00

In a flash of an eye, year 2 of university life officially ended. Slightly less than 3 weeks to the beginning of the new academic year. Its time to conquer new heights, with more performances coming up! Well rag at the start made me kinda apprehensive, with ben tan making me the lead. Well, I guess it'll get better with time. Kinda looking forward to studying actually, and then it all restarts hurr. This time round, it'll be just more special than usual :DD

2011-07-04T10:52:00.001+08:00

So this is what it feels like :D

2011-06-08T00:06:00.003+08:00

This is a year not to be judgmental, or at the very least it's one of my new year resolutions of 2011. Its kinda difficult to define judgmental actually, since most of us give opinions about others all the time, is that considered judgmental? Judgements are in my opinion concluded opinions, since opinions are subject to change all the time. Well its these opinions which are harmful, so lets just put in some effort to put aside these opinions first shall we? (:

Hello wednesday! Looking forward to dance pract later :D

2011-06-07T03:20:00.002+08:00

so soo much to achieve this holidays, can i cope? i hope i can as long as my energy doesn't wear out. hahha

things i took up since before exams:

1) headed the best camp ever - Camp Blueblood (Completed)

2) joined Rag dance

3) joined Seniors Performance - Hip Hop

4) joined Bash Hip Hop item

5) signed up as councillor for Arts Camp

6) signed up as councillor for Sports Camp

i think i'm just crazy haha. lets see how long this youthfulness of mine can last (i think its still a long way before it actually diminishes though) :D

2011-06-06T02:21:00.002+08:00

Well the past semester just proved it all, it proved how perseverance and motivation worked, and how complacency and procrastination could do harm. The most satisfying year of my life I would say (minus the army years - I would term it eventful than satisfying), having headed a camp and a committee, and performing at the UCC twice (Drama/Dance). I was so happy I strived till the very end even with school work piling up at my doorstep, and I dare say its not a miracle that this was the best semester ever in terms of results (: Shall work even harder from next semester onwards! So much coming up as well and I anticipate dearly every single day this summer :D So happy to be able to so many new people as well, with ragdance and arts/sports camp coming up. Can't wait!! haha life is not just about studies ain't it.

Sigh, now I want a guinea pig. hurr

2011-05-06T03:39:00.006+08:00

Its funny how this blog belongs to me, and this is the first time i'm visiting it after almost 3 months (i mean i did try to keep it alive by posting something which i cant remember what it symbolizes). And the tagboard looks hacked, by god knows who (i removed those posts anyway so you wouldnt see them)

Well, one of my resolutions of this year would be to blog more, in fact i thought that it'd be nice keeping a diary, be it online or off. And here i am, trying to revive this near-dead blog.

Its kinda sad, how time flies so quickly. As i sit here typing this post, in my almost empty room as i shifted most of my stuff home already, it dawned upon me that i've officially completed two years of my university life after finishing my exams days back. After reading Audrey's note on facebook about her leaving hall, it feels kinda sad that the next two years are gonna fly by, and i shall be the one in her shoes, typing the very same note, about leaving this place i consider my second home. Well after all, it was seniors like her, and many others who made me feel that way i guess, and soon it'd be my turn when juniors feel the same way about me, hopefully? It just feels as if working life is just sitting right at my doorstep, that it's tomorrow that'll mark the end of my university life. Sigh emo, maybe its just the sheer emptiness of my room. Speaking of which, i need to do well this semester, so so badly.

Its 17days to my 3rd Camp Blueblood, and theres so much nostalgia going on about this. This time, approaching it from a chairperson's point of view, its just so different. Though i so much anticipate the success of this camp, it feels sad that its coming to an end as well. 17days. Many things are gonna be the same, many things will be different as well. All the best to HPB 10/11!

2011-03-17T17:24:00.002+08:00

Maybe it was all just a massive mistake? The one decision that set the tone for the many years to come.

2011-02-14T04:22:00.004+08:00

Its February the 14th, Valentine's Day... i stumbled upon you, the greatness of your everything. Unknowingly, you stuck an almost-dagger into my heart, and on how many occasions i wish can i can pierce a cupid's equivalent into yours.

- Happy Valentine's Day

2010-12-25T23:20:00.002+08:00

Its like ever since I stepped into university, I've been ever so concerned about results. Got back my results recently, and it got me pissed for an entire day. It was coincidentally the same day as my friend's wake, and upon hearing the three eulogies that were delivered, it really touched me greatly. Life, as it is, is filled with metaphorical mountains that we scale, and success and failures come with it. For my friend, it was the last obstacle that he had to overcame, and there was no second chance that came along with it. Well, I gave life is not all about results, its about giving oneself second chances. Its a better day tomorrow!

And, merry christmas everyone! :D

the little things.

2010-12-18T22:36:00.003+08:00

Well, a friend of mine passed away recently in a tragic accident. Shows how tragic life can be; one minute, you can be merrying, everything perfectly normal; an instant later, you might be on the brink of death. Its kinda sad really, and shows how important it is to treasure all those around you.

In a blink of an eye, two weeks of hols flashing past in an instant. Starting with night cycling with hpb, culminating in ihg finals hopefully. Gotta make it more fulfilling than ever :DD

hpb 1011!

2010-12-14T12:52:00.002+08:00

Twists of fate. Well we all know that our future is definitely uncertain, and we can be certain that the it ain't gonna be bleak if we make wise decisions that make you happy. Sometimes we have, and we must settle for a particular decision for one's best interests, well of course at the expense of others around you. And yes I'll give my best wishes, definitely.

I feel blessed, to have such wonderful friends around me. And its heartwarming to know that, when you needed to talk, to pour out certain emotions, a friend is just a call away.

Its so important to be happy, though that might take tremendous effort somehow for some people. And that's exactly what I thought my mom lately, that happiness can rid all illness, since she had been complaining to me about feeling unwell. Haven't been able to spend much time with my family ever since I moved into hall, well I still relish the quality time spent, though minute, with them. Its awesome, still.

2010-11-28T03:33:00.002+08:00

The Band Perry - If I Die Young

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I’ve never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I’m a goner

And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need 'em oh

The sharp knife of a short life

2010-11-26T23:41:00.002+08:00

Well, its been a long while. It had been so hectic, I needed breathing space totally. Checking back, its been close to two months since I posted here. WITH THE BLINK OF AN EYE, I'm just 3 days away to the end of the semester, well at least for me. So much had happened, I've talked to new people, drawn new insights and conclusions to things. At least the thought of having free sundays for myself next semester sounds comforting enough, since my tutor's kid had gladly did away with my services. I sincerely hope though, that a new tutor could do better, as I'm really at odds as to what to do with this kid too. His results are just too bad.

It was actually Alywin's comments that I decided to churn out this post, just when my blog appeared dead. So much more to come this holidays, though its only a depressing five weeks long. Well, will always take a step at a time, while I sit back and watch events unfold by themselves. Got to get past the last hurdle first though.

ps. pickupsomefaith.tumblr.com

2010-10-10T16:53:00.003+08:00

Its been ages since i last blogged. and so much has happened over the last month. After recovering from chicken pox, and stepping up as chairperson of HPB, this was followed by 4 mid-terms, interviews (yes me interviewing), mountains of readings piling up, and trainings. And with deadlines bugging me as well. Well I guess this only makes me stronger day by day, though I reckon all these has srsly taken a toll on my lifespan hahaha. REALLY looking forward to the hols, since i think about 5/8 of the sem has passed.

Oh before I forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNETTE! :D

2010-08-31T20:38:00.003+08:00

who knew this day would come, yes, pox from the chicken. HAHA how great, and all the while i thought my immunity was quite strong, just that this time round it failed me greatly. guess its a blessing in disguise actually? that i could really recuperate from all the fatigue life had given me the first few weeks of school, and most importantly to catch up with work! and imagine i contracted this thingy weeks down the road, how it might affect my exams i wouldn't dare imagine haha.

zomg and i feel really damn itchy now shitzzz

2010-08-15T01:24:00.001+08:00

oh no more procrastination please!

2010-07-24T01:47:00.001+08:00

2010-07-22T16:28:00.002+08:00

ohhhhhman semester's starting in like 2 weeks? no more slacking at home, no more sleeping in, no more procrastination anymore. and i reckon the camps have taken a tad too much of my time, that really sucks cus one camp rounds up to around a week, four camps plus one planning committee meant about a month and a half of my hols gone already. and this remaining 2 weeks given to hall as well. ohwell.

like what bra and val said, when the sem kicks in, HAHA say no to everything already, after all, we all come to uni to study no?and like what i told some ppl how crucial this semester is to me, it became somewhat stressful even before term starts. and really impt decisions i've to make too like whether i wna even stay for third year in hall. expectations of people on me is another thing. yes there will still be time for fun, right?

2010-07-21T19:55:00.001+08:00

2010-07-19T03:10:00.000+08:00

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

Well that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe

I can't breathe but I still fight all I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight

High off of love, drunk from my hate

It's like I'm huffin' paint and I love her

The more I suffer, I suffocate

Right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates

Me, she fuckin' hates me and I love it, Wait!

Where you going? I'm leaving you.

No you ain't. Come back. We're running right back

Here we go again, it's so insane

'Cause when it's going good, it's going great

I'm Superman with the wind in his back

She's Lois Lane, but when it's bad, it's awful

I feel so ashamed, I snapped, "Who's that dude?"

I don't even know his name

I laid hands on her, I'll never stoop so low again

I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

Well that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much,

you could barely breathe when you with 'em?

You meet, and neither one of you even know what hit 'em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah, them chills, used to get 'em

Now you gettin' fuckin' sick of lookin' at 'em

You swore you'd never hit 'em, never do nothing to hurt 'em

Now you're in each other's face spewing venom in your words when you spit 'em

You push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, bit 'em

Throw 'em down, pin 'em, so lost in the moments when you're with 'em

It's the fate that took over, it controls you both

So they say, you're best to go your separate ways

Guess that they don't know you 'cause today,

That was yesterday, yesterday is over, it's a different day

Sound like broken records playing over

But you promised her, next time you'd show restraint

You don't get another chance

Life is no Nintendo game, but you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave out the window

Guess that's why they call it "window pane"

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

Well that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean

And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine

But your temper's just as bad as mine is

You're the same as me

When it comes to love you're just as blinded

Baby, please come back, it wasn't you, Baby, it was me.

Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems

Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is I love you too much to walk away though

Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?

Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball

Next time I'm pissed, I'll aim my fist at the drywall

Next time? There won't be no next time

I apologize, even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of the games, I just want her back. I know I'm a liar

If she ever tries to fuckin' leave again,

I'ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

I'm just gonna

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

Well that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

2010-07-05T15:03:00.005+08:00

two weeks, two camps. one of the most awesome periods this holidays with amazing friendships forged. never regretted once joining camps despite knowing how much it would take a toll on the body. yet, one of the most meaningful and fulfilling hols ever.

Arts camp S house, best house once more. just proud ttm.

ohman i feel like i need magical icecream now. one last camp. which is kinda sucky though, cause i didnt know the dates were so back to back, and the manpower allocation's kinda screwed up. but well its okay i guess. can't wait fr this camp to be over. need a well-deserved break (:

p.s. hamster soon!

2010-06-19T02:29:00.000+08:00

"Everyone of us is losing something precious to us. Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back again. That’s part of what it means to be alive. But inside our heads—at least that’s where I imagine it—there’s a little room where we store those memories. A room like the stacks in this library. And to understand the workings of our own heart we have to keep on making new reference cards. We have to dust things off every once in a while, let in fresh air, change the water in the flower vases. In other words, you’ll live forever in your own little private library."

— Haruki Murakami (via kari-shma)

2010-06-14T23:36:00.000+08:00

aww. haha :D

2010-06-14T00:33:00.002+08:00

well this basically sums up HPB 09.10. Trip to KL/Genting was just awesome, and as usual with yonghwee ard, we had beer everynight hahhaa. well m'sia really opened my eyes to many things, at least i had a newfound fear of cablecars. haha and trips with friends are really of another level! its like fun ttmmm.

haha can't wait to get on a hotairballoon one day! :D

2010-06-05T02:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes you've to recognize the flaws within yourself, to be able understand others better.

This time last year..

2010-06-04T00:38:00.002+08:00

This time last year,

... the 2nd day of Camp Blue Blood, SP revelation the next day.

... still having the time of my life after release from army.

... having the minimum of worries with no exams and the like.

... looking young and radiant.

... looking forward to more camps and making new friends!

sigh, i guess hall has really taken a toll on me, both academically and my youthfulness. and i'm really disappointed with results, despite working so hard (i think ppl around me can vouch for that.) and i really don't wish to attribute results to hall cause its really unfair. and i feel its a little too late already to review my studying methods no?haha screw exams man.

ohwell, i wonder what my parents have to say about my results, cause it aint exactly good. and since when do parents look at effort, they look at the final result. haha. ok man i should stop ranting, cus ranting isnt very healthy either hahaha

just finished the first of camps, more to come! woohoo! i guess i'll probably do this for another year, before i retire and conclude that im really old already haha. well ciao! malaysia next monday!! :D

2010-05-30T09:57:00.003+08:00

Its finally over!! Camp Blue Blood 2010! Well I remembered me having loads to comment about, but all in all, it was all about giving the freshies a fine experience, as i did around this time last year. Till we meet again in fwoc! and i've gotta thank HPB 09/10 for the times spent together, well proving that its the company that makes the difference (:

Oh gosh, results out tomorrow. Suddenly i don't know what to expect despite having this certain level of confidence right when examinations ended. Well results ain't everything right. And the Hpb trip is more or less confirmed! so excited about it! Been a long while since i took a plane already hahhaa.

And i finally looked at my calendar in detail, its about as packed as it can be. Don't really know i should be happy about it or not, 4 camps and a overseas trip. hmmm. At the very least, world cup is starting soon! haha can't wait man!

2010-05-09T00:41:00.001+08:00

"friendship is like pee in your pants. everyone can see it's there, but only you can feel the true warmth." - anon

2010-05-06T03:33:00.004+08:00

Well, yesterday marked the end of semester 2 of year 1. Cause for celebration? Haha, no. Sleep first hahaha.

Life is all about the different paths we choose to undertake, and that coupled with important decisions made, every minute, every second. Wrong decisions made and there you bear the consequences. Even simple things like choosing to stay up late, when the occasion the next day doesn't call for it, be prepared to face the music. We can never see where the end of the road leads you to, and that is an inherent mystery unless you seek its path. Its like the come end of university, so what? Just aim for a good cap right, and see how. Guess i really should find time to should sit down and ponder, what do i want and look for at the end of the day. hah..

Ohman, my first experience in an operating theatre, donned in surgery robes, wasn't a good one after all. The extraction of 4 teeth really dealt me badly, well it works differently for different ppl i suppose? And i think this at least is the most suckiest feeling experienced this year, doubt there'll be another occasion that will suck so bad, well at least for rest of the year. Well thanks to those who texted me well wishes though :D Hopefully by next week, i can start eating properly again and CBB planning wooohoo! Sigh, i really really want to eat. Night!

2010-05-04T01:32:00.000+08:00

yessssss! one more exam left!! :D

2010-04-30T22:11:00.004+08:00

woohoo ran with cheehow jus now to KR hill. the view was great too! just that probably the exhaustion from studying killed both of us quite early on. gotta try finish the route next time round!

ahh with a big SIGH. yes, the 3 exams this week have totally drained me, and i feel thoroughly exhausted. and my only consolation is that there' still 2 more papers.. and wednesday's probably the most daunting of all. HY1101E. hopefully i'm prepared enough. and i'm totally not looking forward to the op on thursday :O means days of being unable to eat. hmm, okay last stretch! and then i can finally, sleep. haha.

sometimes its more than meets the eye, a particular problem.

2010-04-26T14:59:00.003+08:00

one down, four to go. phew, finally biopsychology tackled. i really hope i get a good grade for it since i really worked hard for it since day one. hmmm, and i really experienced what stress was like last night, umm, it kinda was bad. hahhaa.

i certainly think escapism isn't the best solution out of any quandary. but it'd def be nice to escape away from the drudgery of life, well at least on a hot air balloon :D

12 days more..

2010-04-24T01:16:00.003+08:00

i feel lousy. this is probably one of the rare times, that i actually could not get my act together and crumbling down into what seems like shards of broken glass, each reflecting all the wrong decisions made, hype, stressful events and most importantly, expectations of the past semester. one of the rare times too, i chose to rant on my blog, which is usually for posting happy shout-outs. well, even the 11km run by myself yesterday didnt help, which i thought would be a good get away from books, which are just so mentally draining. is it all about exam-smartness or exam-prepareness that i'm lacking, these immaterial things which i so desperately search for ever since i was in jc. and it dealt upon me that i am competing with the elites from all around.. well guess its just consistency that matters too, i have to work hard from next semester onwards, especially being quite a 'consistent' hall person as well.

expectations are such a heavy thing to shoulder. and it can really make or break a person. like what Nash said, he isn't going to let this semester go down without a fight, and thats all i'm aiming for now. ok going home early tomorrow for a breather! and to all whom it matters, all the best for exams! to me as well :D

ダレン君、がんばってね！

2010-04-23T00:12:00.001+08:00

life's like a fairytale, and all we have to do is just believe in happy endings. :D

all the best to me for exams!

2010-04-18T00:45:00.004+08:00

Probably the last post before exams commences. haha the past week was like a whirlwind for me, what with the final week of school, 2 Commands, and soccer to sum up the end of the week. whhooo!

Usually when people (non-hall stayers) tell me, how bad it is to stay in hall, how many personal sacrifices I have to make, or that hall has consumed you et cetera. Normally I'll take a neutral stand, or occasionally making the statement that I won't be able to imagine university life without hall. And since I actually reside in hall for up to 51/2 days a week, isnt it right to consider it my 2nd home? The last week just proves it all, especially during Block Command, where the memories of the past 2 semesters just flooded back upon watching the video, and biding farewell to the final years. Especially so, when the 900mb video (movie) was made by myself and arvin. To be honest, I was rather surprised to the extent at which the emotions poured out on thursday night, and I can attest to that based on the fact that these seniors actually stayed in hall for such a long period, and the tears just justified how emotionally attached to hall they are.

Family photo! Guess at the end of hall stay, I'd just have to conclude that Blue and Green resides in my blood, and at the end of the day, I'd just bleed yellow.

Soccer was great! And playing with alumni I could draw several conclusions. There's one thousand and one reasons why I'm so reluctant to age. Just how fast they tire out, testifies to that. And studying just takes a hell lot of fitness out of you. Luckily with abit of warm-up I was good to go. It was a rather good sweat-out session, and lots to look forward to when exams come to an end :D

Okok, back to books! and stop putting too much pressure on myself. Cya on the 5th of May!

2010-04-07T19:38:00.005+08:00

prep for final exams well begun! just got back my essay, which i believed i struggled. haha was below my expectations.. SIGH.

then again you believed you can do better.

hints toward the end of the road, so much clearer now.

yeah, the day i own a dog, i'd name him dorkie.

are dogs really man's best friends? so my best friends are dogs?

2010-03-27T05:19:00.004+08:00

i sincerely hope next week will be better. and it seems as if studying psychology makes it possible to change your life some sort of other, its kinda refreshing woooo! this week have been MAD, talked to lots of different people, and heard about their happenings and grievances. its kinda easy to give the satisfied look on our faces, i guess from the inside of their hearts, its a different perspective altogether. to all out there who are feeling unhappy, sick, there's always a better tomorrow (:

i find that, it is not the matter of knowing so many people, and in the end you only know a little bit out of everyone. i'd rather know a smaller bunch of people, and we all build up from there. sounds better?

haha parents have left for holidays yet again, and they somehow made it a point to go for a trip withing 1-2 months of my exams. ftw. well some bon voyage!! home would be lonely thus, time to sink into some serious mugging. i'm able to count down already, to the day of the end of exams! then I WILL BE FREE FROM BOOKS FOR ABIT :D

2010-03-23T14:47:00.003+08:00

Woooo! End of a hell period! Could finally heave a HUGE sigh of relief after two consequtive nights of sleeping at 8am and 4am. hahaha its just astounding to note the fact that the life of a university student of Singapore.. Well sometimes i think its more than stressful and it really hurts the body so much, in terms of lack of sleep, exercising time et cetera. The tired, old-looking future leaders of our nation, all as a result of education.

And my first ever 1.5k essay done! hahah so proud of it. THANKYEW MEIYI for all your help! haha one more month to examssss!

2010-03-19T16:09:00.003+08:00

Was doing my homework for Japanese, and thought that i might as well post it up here. This is about my thoughts about White Day in Japan :D

みんさんおはよございます！

シンガポールではホワイトデーがありませんから、ざんねんですね。：（　でも、

シンガポールではバレンタインデーがありますよ。その日は男の子が女の子にプレゼントをあげて、とてもおもしろいですよ。

毎年のバレンタインデーは二月十四日で、男の子が好きな女の子にいろいろなプレゼントをあげます。プレゼントはチョコレートやぬいぐるみ（plush toys)などです。女の子が男の子にプレゼントをあげてもいいですよ。

今年わたしはバレンタインデーをしませんでした、彼女がありませんから。=’( でも、今年のバレンタインデーはちょっとちがいますよ。バレンタインデーとChinese New Yearは同じ日ですから。その日はたくさん「Happy New Year」と言っていたり、友達といっしょに映画を見たり、いろいろな食べ物を食べたりしました。　とてもたのしかったです。（：

わたしは日本のバレンタインデーで、女の子が男の子にプレゼントをあげてのことがおもしろいだと思います。ほんめいチョコがもらいたいですから。（：そして、ワイトデーはシンガポールできっとみんなさんがほしくて、好きな日だと思います。みんなさんは同じ意見ですか。

じゃ、みんなさんさよなら！

ダレン（１年生）

haha this weekend and next week's gonna be hell man! zzzZ

2010-03-17T10:00:00.005+08:00

Guess the end of midterms and NUS Open House (which was really the bang!) just marks the start of the prep for finals. Well it had been an exhausting two weeks really, and sometimes i really ponder whether all of this is worth it, with school work piling up... Do people mainly just work on motivation itself? Yes and i truly believe there's more to it than just results alone, since results ain't really everything. spoken to Nash recently (uhm i'm always talking to people!), and he mentioned something about happiness. I guess sometimes we forget about the happiness that is ubiquitous around us and yet we often seem to displace it from our minds and dread every passing day.

And this comes with the fact that we often associate happiness to the extraordinary, when contentment comes in many forms, in the form of the friendships all around us. Well, we have to learn to appreciate more no?

*this photo is dedicated to (mel khoo and fongmeiyi)

iheartKR HPB 09/10!

2010-03-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

sometimes you feel so cooped up, and you wish for more in life. but then again you should think about getting out of the mess you're in, first.

well mid-terms over! much, much more to come!

2010-03-03T21:16:00.003+08:00

Guess I'll start it off with a huge Sigh. Its been the longest time I've been coughing, and prior to this i was literally sick-free for more than half a year. Is this the coming of what university life is? Or maybe its just the suck-iest weather singapore has ever experienced, that drains all the energy out of me?

Well maybe its some cause for celebration with mid-terms ending today, though i doubt i'd do as well as i had planned it out to be. Srsly i havent studied so hard before in my life, think the ppl around me can vouch for that. But today's exam just wasnt great, a rather huge wet blanket i'd say since i put in alot of effort for it. And 3 huge cheers to HPB for the flashmob today which i thought it went rather successful :D Thanks to SS and bra for all the hard work choreographing!

Now its time to sleep, recuperate, play some soccer, and then hit the books again (:

2010-03-02T12:38:00.002+08:00

Such is the effects of a country torn apart by natural calamity and circumstances, what more should we ask for in the comforts of a disaster-free haven bestowed upon us?

2010-02-28T15:28:00.002+08:00

I asked my tuition kids yesterday, do you wanna do well in your exams? They shrugged their shoulders. Hmm okay, I replied. Do you like studying then? I asked again. No, they answered.

I guess there's some point in life when we really question the advantages in studying, and thus we grew to dislike it so much. And I guess the answer to that would be, you don't really have to like studying, but rather to find joy in knowing that we're learning something new everyday, and hopefully some day this might be put into good use. Better yet, passing on this knowledge to others who really want it. Yes this is what I told my kids. At the very least, I'm happy studying regardless of what my results would turn out to be. And this is something I want to instill in them (:

Cheers to exams? hahha

2010-02-17T02:22:00.004+08:00

I guess i mentioned this before, that friendships should last an eternity. And suddenly it came upon me that social gatherings of people by and large, were an essential to ultimately serve as a continuation, since some element of fate had already brought people together. Shouldn't it be there to stay?

I guess I feel more drained than ever, and its this period of hardships faced internally that's just so hard to dispel. Its like a constant lingering feeling of exhaustion that would never cease, and I yearn for the day I can get a good twelve hours of uninterrupted rest. However the good things are there to stay, and a rather eventful cny seems to be an excellent prelude to the rest of the year. The motivation seems to run inversely proportional as a function of my tiredness, and thats great as well.

Well, I guess working hard for something does definitely give a rewarding feeling after all (: and I dare say I can nearly see the light end of the tunnel, though an arduous journey yes it is.

Song Words by Artist / Band : Onerepublic feat Sara Bareilles
Lyrics Title : Come Home
Available on Album : Dreaming Out Loud
Released :
Music Genre : Piano Rock

(Song Data Information from : Wikipedia)

Onerepublic
Hello world
Hope you’re listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn

There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So I say you’ll

Come home, come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long, for so long
And right now there’s a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home

Oooooh oooh

Sara Bareilles
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything I see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now yeah
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then

Ooooooh oooooooooooooh

Duet : Onerepublic – Sara Bareilles
Everything I can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why I need you here
Everything I can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why I need you here

So hear this now

Come home, come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long, for so long
And right now there’s a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known

Onerepublic
Ever known
So come home
Come home
Sara Bareilles
Come home, come home
I’ve been waiting for you
Onerepublic

Come home

Cheers to the rest of the sem, my family, to HPB, my neighbours, to everyone I hold dear. (:

2010-02-16T00:50:00.003+08:00

Same old routine Chinese New Year, for its first two days passed just like a breeze in our countenances. It seems to take on a different perspective, of viewing cny in the shoes of a kid, as compared to who I am now. The things we value seem ever-changing in the face of new phases of life. Now, red packets and even the most mundane things as being clad in auspicious red, does not seem to be the most important of all anymore. We long for the magnificent good old days, carefree and free of troubles. I guess its all evidence of being older, for age signifies deeper thought and maturity.

WOO TEPPANYAKI AT EUGENE'S PLACE!! It was awesome and i swear i haven ate so much meat in one go, and it felt so sinful to have so many animals dying for my sake, when I could have eaten much less. Ohno I must find some way to repent. And I didnt really get to set my new year resolutions the beginning of this year, should I really list them down now? WELL, the fengshui master did said people my kind, will have a smooth year ahead. Yeah, my primary wish this year would be good results, haha that I'll be contended (:

Towards the path of contentment; simple beings with simple goals, and friendships that last an eternity (:

random friends ftw!!

2010-02-12T12:33:00.004+08:00

woohoo! ihg has finally ended! three cheers to KR (:

so much have happened over the weeks, most notable being, the spoiling of 2 slippers in 2 weeks. how omg.

the proudest of all, KR Floorball, will never forget every moment till that defeat in the hands of temasek hall

and chingay sure didnt fail to evoke every emotion out of me.

i feel drained, both physically and mentally, my body clock seem totally out of synch to that of a live, kicking chicken.

i feel that my life is kinda messed up at the moment, and hope something would appear to clear up all this nonsense

and if only i own a helipad in my backyard, i could just fly away and never come back. at least temporarily (:

2010-01-12T21:08:00.010+08:00

OH MY GOD THE SEM HAS STARTED, OFFICIALLY.

apologies for not updating, for those who thought i disappeared. firstly, this post is dedicated to all who played some part on my birthday, and every single one who remembered and wished me. was really really happy on that day. after all it marks an end to a year so eventful that i could remember its every facet and every detail.

for 2009, i travelled abroad to places like hong kong, macau and KL. i attended camps that were so endearing i just wished it could happen over and over again. i ended my term in serving the army, which i learnt so many invaluable lessons. i forged new friendships, even though some are beyond contact now due to circumstances. it is just, all so memorable..

the term hope, seems so unjustifiable since it hasn't been the source of fulfillment in life for most people. 100% action, 0% talk. yes thats on the cover of the notebook weikit has given us, and i guess that would be the resolution for this year. for the most parts of 2009, procrastination dealt me dearly, and it still felt as if there are apologies i still owe people, favours unreturned, and thankyous left unsaid. yes, 2010 would be the year of more resolute decision-making, a more resilient mind, a mind that isnt so much overwhelmed by emotions.

looking at the amount of readings on my desk now, i can't help but comment that this semester looks really daunting, what with hall activities and and so on. and nash just spoke to me about going for dance auditions, should i? this is a year full of challenges, like scaling the highest mountain on earth. perseverance shall triumph, and i really really hope that this is a year of i'd see change :D

2009-12-27T21:43:00.003+08:00

alas. i found joy in teaching kids.

KL TRIP TMRRRR! can't wait! :DDD

2009-12-25T16:11:00.002+08:00

erm.. hi, my name is zihao. yes, one semester of university concluded, after the release of results on the 22nd. i mugged hard, and the exams went rather smoothly, and i sort of expected an average grade since i didnt do well for my midterms. up till the loading of the results page, i was still rather optimistic. and to my chagrin, i got a less than average grade. i took it with real dismay seriously, even with so many words of encouragement from around, which i really appreciated. this just wasnt the perfect start to university education.. ohwell, i guess i havent put in enough effort this semester, and yess, two weeks till we hit the restart button, and i can only tell myself that working harder is the only option. really, i swear i'll study hard next sem. what a christmas present this year..

every christmas, i'll count down to the last days before my age count jumps by one. its a rather bittersweet feeling; sweet when friends celebrate my birthday together, bitter when you know you know you're getting older and there is this responsibility if you do stupid things. i volunteered for CDAC recently. the kids are soooo cute. how i wish i was i was still young again, so many things unfulfilled in life. if only we are aware of your interests when we were young, then at least its not too late to pursue them..

tuition's tough! for a p2 kid hahaha.

blessed christmas everyone! haha trip to m'sia in three days! can't wait! :DD carlsberg rocks

2009-12-19T01:17:00.002+08:00

and finally the first of results, of the very first of exams, presented to me in front of my screen. i admit my reaction was nonchalant, cause the real deal comes this 22nd. the day i don't know what to expect..

the 9pm serial drama, 'Together', depicts life in the 60s, of a closely-knit household of four families living under one roof. its very much like hall life, minus the bitchy landlord, street gangsters and bribery. yes, if its possible to turn back time, i wouldn't mind life in the 60s seriously hahaha

omg i drove a lorry yesterday! and a million thanks to kaiyin for your gift! :DD

i wish i were able to travel this holidays. i feel i really need a breather, before it all begins again.

2009-12-13T22:44:00.002+08:00

I FEEL LIKE DANCING RIGHT NOW.

omg who knew hall during holidays would be so empty, like a ghost town. i guess i'm too used to being with the company of friends, its just this empty feeling now. i think i really need a holiday to take a breather.

and i just accepted tuition! one pri 2 and pri 5 kid. hope it'll all work out cause i'm quite nervous in teaching since its my first time. what an experience it would be, to relegate the mind to immaturity of a primary 2 child, who have not even mastered conservation. bought assessment books today! haha cute lah, the questions.

so much to ponder about. so much to hesitate.

so much for it being the holidays.

haha congrats to mel koh on winning the queen of queens! :DD

2009-12-06T12:27:00.004+08:00

exams over!! 'it was a hard-fought battle,' says me. guess uni studies isn't as simple as i thought it would be, and its not something that extreme faith and confidence can help. the holiday period will be damn short! ohmygosh-ly. and its time to think, recap what has happened over the past months, and most imptly enjoy as much as i could hahaha (before we hit the reset button and another semester beckons).

caught 2012 recently. how weak is humankind. you realise that people struggle in times of adversity, and to find a serene haven in which to reconcile with normalcy, people go to extreme measures. sometimes you really wish the world would end, just to see who the wolves and the cocksters are.

and Case 39 was one hell of a movie, to think a tiny little girl could scare 5 guys out of their seats. thought the show was quite well done though, depicting the work of a social worker. somtimes i wonder if i picked the right profession for myself, since the decision indeed lay in my hands one year ago when i applied for this course. it is after all a tough, demanding job, that at the end of the day, brings a smile to your client. that itself, i guess its all worthwhile. its like celebrating birthdays, the day you could actually tease them like crazy, and being part of his or her birth anniversary. and mine soon, i guess its just this inherent feeling of people hating to grow old hahaha

hahaha. ATTEMPTED to fly a kite today. but, epic fail. hahhaa the wind was hiding itself.

its sad when you get past life's various phases, people come and go like dono wad. its like the traffic light; at red, you stop, make friends and socialize; at amber, each phase approaches its end, and you prepare to move on; at green, you move on to the next traffic light and the cycle repeats. how true is that, unless you make substantial effort, like disabling the traffic light such that it stays at red..

have you ever thought wad if you had grown up in the slums,
how different would your life be right now.
and if you had grown up in a filthy rich family,
how different would that be?

sigh, i wish life was easier, or at least more straightforward. guess its like wad Mitch Albom tells the rest of the world, have a little faith.

2009-11-23T21:33:00.002+08:00

yes. the feeling of going into an exam not fully prepared, which shouldnt be the way to begin with. and all i have to say is that university's standard hasnt been easy in the first place, and today's paper kinda pawned my ***. then i wonder if i should s/u this module since i've the chance to, and if it were to pull down my overall cap. but should up? next up, Pl1101E on wednesday! all the best! to me.

hmms. been thinking of how should i celebrate my 21st. hahaha

2009-11-21T13:57:00.005+08:00

finished my first paper today (: cant remember how long ago was it that i sat for a paper under examination conditions. how nostalgic. waiting outside the examination hall, the apprehension before the paper, and the comparing of answers after the paper. guess it all starts, university life. all is such. cant really see the light at the end of the tunnel yet, but yes, exams first, think later.

my stamina really sucks now, really need to start running soon! just one game of floorball seems to be killing me haha. hmms 11 DAYS TO END OF EXAMSSSSS. yes i am dying in anticipation for that day. all the best to all for exams. haha if you need a break, visit peter chao on youtube. he's darn funny! haha nap now, chiong later :D

how i wish for the day judgement ceases. no one will care about how one dresses, the things one does, and the display of one's emotions. i wish for memory that lasts an eternity, for a pure heart that has never sinned, a world with no obligations..

and how far from that vision are we?

2009-11-13T06:31:00.002+08:00

the light of dawn. how often is it i get to experience that, the fading blue against the grey of infrastructure at the wee hours of the morning. jus studied through the night at the central lib with sara, cant rly define productivity since uni modules are mostly kinda lame, sigh. REALLY I CANT WAIT FOR EXAMS TO BE OVER, or at least after that i could sorta readjust my direction of life, cause right now i hardly have the time to even ponder over what are my goals at least in the near future, or ponder over when i should start even thinking about it. hahaha

only as recently as today im officially taking note of my expenditure, thks to lynette for sending me that excel file. guess its time to figure out where exactly my money goes to haha. my last lecture of the sem today! kinda nostalgic, the everyday places i struggle to keep awake listening to the drone of the lecturer's sutra haha

and wanna take this opportunity to mention the blockcomm, weikit, xue er, xuenie, arvin and rachel, for the awesome times spent together thus far. i admit it wasn't easy from the start, but yeah we still managed to pull through this sem, which is kinda gives a gratifying feeling, so thanks guys! :D

hmm ok off to bed! morning!

2009-11-03T15:08:00.003+08:00

i really haven been able to wake up recently, and yesterday i woke up terribly late, MISSED A TUTORIAL. omggg! guess its the sleep debt incurred after recent events, in which it marks the march towards the end of the sem. Night Cycling! Movie Screening! :D and as of today a month later, it'll be 3days after my last exam! can't wait like srsly. and loads of things i wanna do during the december break

hah got back my psych paper which i got an A-, quite glad cus i haven been doing well for all those mid-term tests, ie below average results. hoping to bounce back from there. thought about stuff that will be happening after uni, and after all i think studying is still the best time of a person's life, thereafter the drone of working life jus sapping the very vitality off you. and looking forward to travel the world after graduating (still a loooong way to go!) since its been my dream since young. and am glad that i'm settled with what i want to major in, and after recent discussions with eugene i might jus as well do a minor in jap studies. hahaha how fun!

the death of my granddad recently did struck me, as how much more you cherish someone when he passes on, and the saying goes that absence makes the heart grow fonder, it makes a difference when this absence lasts an eternity. significant are the fond memories being left behind.. yah i rly do treasure the various relationships with different people, and even small short conversations with a friend does really work wonders (:

HPB 09/10: mel khoo, alywin, yong hwee, darren, jing hong, carolyn, bryan, hui min, jane, bora, nadiah, clement, valmond, jia yun.

www.iheartkr.blogspot.com

2009-10-22T02:44:00.001+08:00

you find that as you age, your ability to memorize things just deteriorates further by the day.

2009-10-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

hahaha D block trip to JB was awesomenessss! always felt great travelling :D cant wait for the next time i get to travel again. and ohman school seriously sucked, to think that in the past i really looked forward to uni commencing, and in fact without hall i think uni would be pretty much meaningless. while at the same time hall seems to be the main reason why i havent have much time studying either, all i can say is just HHAHAH. TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME LAH.

exams lurking around the corner, stressed man O.O

it is usually when you really come to lose a loved one, that you really cherish the past, look back and think that you haven't really spent much quality time together.

2009-10-03T20:19:00.003+08:00

今晩は! been long, since i left an update here. but owell its only for those who actually reads my blog. school and hall life have really been picking up so fast i'm really having difficulty registering its pace. and its probably the fact that both are happening simultaneously that really stress my point. midterms was hell of a whirlwind, accompanied by overwhelming information overload and fatigue from all the activities. and then in about a month and a half's time, its the final year exams already. ZOMG.

really God has its plans, and before long one's age catches up, couples come together, breakups, you rise and fall. and my granddad being diagnosed with cancer recently brought me to reflect feeling that i havent been spending much time with him the past few years (it was rather a few-times-a-year affair). owell after all the effects of smoking so intensively did surface, and pretty much nothing can be done to reverse that anymore. sigh

i think im still more of a sports person from the beginning, and thus its wise and fun to switch to more culture, which i did since the start of uni, namely dance, which i kinda gained a huge interest in. still kinda sad that i didnt pass the auditions for KRdance. but still i'm in KRX(acts), which is cool. seriously if time permits i'd just invest it in dance or music (: i find that finding time in for productive study so far is a concern though, since results is after all why i am in university in the first place. and of course you definitely cant expect everything to go as planned as well with things cropping up in the priorities queue. more of that to come what with sports trainings and meetings, hmmm. sometimes i wonder is it worth it to be so hard on myself, but at least i'm doing stuff i like so..

JB trip next saturday! cant wait.

2009-08-28T01:11:00.007+08:00

have been sleeping at 4am nowadays, guess thats how its like staying in hall. activities come in abundance and thus you end the day EXTREMELY LATE. its really time to switch to the study mentality once again, cause i feel like i haven done much when week 3 is already drawing to a close. lectures are really a chore mannnn, and the awesome-st faculty just doesnt provide webcast. cause i usually have to talk to the person beside me to stay awake. yeah so, if only we can sleep and listen at the same time. tt'd be great hahahaha

its kinda interesting to know that we unknowingly cross one another's paths each day, to that point whereby there's this connection between the organism's living in a community. like when a bird flew past and shit on you, or when you step on some dog's faeces. safe to say both parties' destinies have met :D same applies to humans, you never know when someone really unique chances upon you and your life is never the same before

some stupid jinx la, have been getting injured the very first day IBG started. its like having recovered one day, and injuring again the next moment. then i tink i strained my thigh muscle two days ago which is kinda bad, hope it recovers like 3hours later cause we'll have to WIN IT FOR D-BLOCKKKK

finally ragdance outing!! hahaha it was still great, the feeling of everyone's company. and the movie was really great. everyone should just go watch it! its like one of the best romantic comedies i've caught, and of course the people i watch with makes the difference la hahahaha

omg i have to studyyyyy

2009-08-22T02:33:00.005+08:00

hi, do you know the weight of a polar bear? hahahaha.

school officially started like last week. it was nothing but hectic, fighting against the sleep bag during lectures was terrible as it has always been. and tutorials starting next week omgggg. hall life so far had been nothing but fulfilling. and its really great with like-minded people all around you living under one (huge) roof. still seriously missing ragdance, cause those were really really great times, once in a lifetime experiences :DD

somewhat i've been staying over friday nights, meaning that i'm missing saturday soccer sessions. which kinda suck cause im being asked every friday night whether i'm going on saturday. feel dam bad but really hope that they'll understand (if you're actually reading this) cause its really about juggling my time well, and i have to prioritize which stuffs are really important to me. and now i feel bad cause i'm not going home this weekend as well cause inter-block games have officially began, AND WAH ITS REALLY QUITE DAMN FUN. will have to find time to go back cause its really quite unreasonable to travel home since my everything is here in halllll. hahahaha

science bash this saturday!! hope weisheng wins science king hahhaa. hall D&D in two weeks time! omg i have to find time to study! SOCCER IBG TMRRRRRRR

its about dilemmas and making decisions, really.

2009-08-16T00:20:00.009+08:00

and yes, as a reply to my previous post,

WE WON THE CHANCELLOR'S SHIELD!!!

K!
K!
K!
K!
R!

yes i'll never forget that moment.

finally finally, hell of a hectic two weeks came and past. can gladly say it was nothing but fulfilling as rag dance, dating game and hall bash drew to a close. srsly thank the rag dance committee for everything. and OMG I REALLY MISS RAG DANCE (bok-face and all) like crazy; and my date for everything, though u missed the movie hahaha.

school beckoned ages ago, and it became a reality after sequences of dying anticipation to attend lectures and study. and the first of a series of lectures came just last wednesday. it was a rather different experience, what with foreign lecturers, longer periods and having to cope with varying accents. hahaha i'm somewhat really motivated to do well i duno why (pls dont laugh, lol)

VOLLEYBALL! SOCCER! TAKRAW! FLOORBALL! omgg hall's really nothing but fun. its like sports school to me somehow, and the late nights are really reducing my lifespan seriously. and the people are really nice. KR , my second home :DD

and IBG NEXT WEEK!! D-block shall triumph.

2009-08-04T18:05:00.004+08:00

to the little flies in the shower room, love them. i duno why you're there in the first place but, at the very least you know you should be there at that very point of time; you triumphed over

to rag dance, you seem a far-fetched idea a long time ago, and having it now a reality and the way it spices up and inspires, it is truly mesmerizing.

to life, we only live it once, so treasure it ((:

i really feel so so bad i havent been able to find time to go back to arts oweek. there were anticipative gestures, really, a week before but i didnt know hall stuff would take up so much of my time. to friends from arts camp if you're really reading this, hope u understand :D

RAG IN 2DAYS. WE WILL WIN THE WAR.

2009-08-01T15:40:00.010+08:00

A DEDICATION TO SOMEONE SPECIAL (:

"Dear Shi Qi, thanks for being my date! rag dance so far was awesome, but you somewhat made it special. FWOC was incredible, and all in the name of fun, the dating game went sorta smoothly :D i remembered you announcing out loud you wanted someone to date you, and it was an honour for me to choose you, cause i tink you're really funny, and i really like funny people! anw you're really a great dancer, and i SERIOUSLY respect good dancers cause i tink they really rock. how was the breakfast? i thought the scrambled egg was good, lol. hope you like the perf on bbq nite too, we really rehearsed like mad hahaha, and hope you'll forget the perf too cause its really damn unglam haha. so cool we all (valmond alwyn etc) get to sit together during the formal dinner, it'd be fun! anyways, i dedicate this song specially for you (: have a great week ahead!

- Darren

Ohhh ....
Ohhh ... Yeah Yeah
Ohhh .... Yeahh

Since the day that we met girl
I aint never had anyone make me feel this way
And my heart is sure it wants to be with you
Wanna give you the whole world
oh
If you make the promise to me, You're gonna stay
Without you guiding me, I'm lost and so confused

What will it take to show you I'll be by your side

Girl I got you and I want to give you what you never had
Girl everyday I hope to make you part of my life
Cause you know me and I know you
girl your love is where it's at
ohhh...

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing ever that bad that we won't be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together

Oooh..

I know he left you stranded
And you paid the price when you messed up your life oh
girl I know you're so afraid
But I can't right the wrongs he did
I know you saw the lipstick on my window
And wonder'n how many chick's been to my home
I've done my share of playing games
But for you I given up that life

What will it take to show you I'll be by your side
Girl I got you and I want to give you what you never had
Girl everyday I hope to make you a part of my life
Cause you know me and I know you
Girl your love is where it's at

ohhh...

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing ever that bad that we won't be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together

Baby you're the one I've waited for
Because you gave me what I need and more
Girl its clear that we are meant to be
Together,
We should be together ....
Eternally
Ohhh...

Girl I'm gonna be

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back (The one that got your back)
Ain't nothing ever that bad that we won't be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made (never wish we made)
But we'll be okay if we just stay together(just stay with me)

(Everything Gonna Be Alright)

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing ever that bad that we won't be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together

:D:D

2009-07-12T22:23:00.004+08:00

i must say i'm somewhat lost with reality after a series of recent events. it brightened up my life indefinitely, and after attending like three different camps already, i can gladly say that life's fulfillment indeed goes a long way. arts camp was awesome, and psychology camp beyond doubt an enjoyment of another level as compared to arts camp, the bonds forged in between them seem like they could last an eternity. its always nice, like what chonghui told me, that you know that when day 1 of university life begins you know that you have friends you could depend on already. certainly certainly certainly, i havent regretted one moment :D

months ago i was telling friends that i couldnt wait for university to begin, and right now its only weeks to the start, i'm feeling the apprehension already. bidding, adjusting to uni and hall life and so on. all of it will pass like in a flash, since one semester lasts only like 13weeks.

the act of being humble is a gift, that shall not be exploited, and you know that sometimes you cant hide from the truth forever. i'm really disgusted with the way you twisted the facts so nonchalantly, like how u fulfilled drama's prerequisites. i rather you havent said anything at all. really

still in the busy phase though, its like never-ending! work tmr! then tennis at josheen/john's place. arts oweek precamp on tues followed by ragdance at night. then hongkong on wed! when i return i'm moving into hall already. somehow im really really glad that i'll most likely be able to attend the start of KR's FWOC, and i'm really looking forward to it

and now my pillow became my bolster and vice versa haha!

2009-07-03T10:59:00.004+08:00

was just wondering whether we fart in our sleep? hmm. and i wonder if our eyes would really pop out when we sneeze with our eyes open.

i wish i was staying in hall already. been outta home all the time, and going back late. sometimes to put urselves in the shoes of a parent, i really duno how to feel if your kid's like this.so that my parents dont have to worry about me staying out late, i can just hang out till wadever time then i'll go back to hall and sleep (hahhaa i hope my parents doesnt see this) but owell, ARTS CAMP 2009 was a blast! special thanks to the wonderful ogls and especially the freshies. somehow after knowing that sports camp got cancelled halfway due to h1(nice)1, i was really glad that arts camp was able to last all the way till the finale. arts camp have somehow just ended last night/ cause SIEWMAI HAVE BEEN MEETING EVERY OTHER DAY. time for a break

non-stop facebook and the thing going on about priorities and saying no to people. sometimes i just have to learn to say no

psychcamp tomorrow! really dont have the mood to pack. i feel its a little too fast. its like i'm on a runaway train, no stopping. haven exactly rested which i tink its really bad for my health with random hints of dosing off here and there. soccer match with nexus later! so excited!

its better to have loved and lost, then never to have loved at all.

2009-06-26T12:06:00.003+08:00

new blog songs!

it seems a distant time ago when my dad announced to me that we'll be going on a short trip to Hongkong, and that being the fact that i mentioned that i wanna go on a family trip jus before the start of university. they actually fulfilled that, and i was happy. it was also during that time when the h1n1 saga wasn't as dire as it is now, not only im putting myself at risk by travelling, i'll be missing the start of KR's FWOC. cause MOE passed this new regulation that students who travelled to countries with cases of community-transmission of the virus are to self-quarantine themselves for 7days when you return. i was terribly sad when i got news of this, cause missing the first four days of the camp, its like not going at all.. and i just have to constantly remind myself that all this is for a good cause.

as of now, rag dance practice have started off rather smoothly. it was really great cus i've never imagined myself dancing. and the ppl there are really nice too :Dit was super funny cus on tuesday we did some icebreaker thingyi where we had to sit in one circle introducing ourselves, and stating one hobby of ours. then the girls all mentioned dancing as one of their hobbies, whereas the guys' were giving all random remarks, esp jordan, 'oh i enjoy going to facebook and tagging people.' wth la hahaha. the trying of costumes yesterday! i admit they were quite well done actually. really impressed.

ARTS CAMP 2009: Angels n Demons, beginning tmr. im not really like jumping in anticipation about this camp, i duno why. and i've barely started packing, considering its five days long and i'll probably have to pay more attention to packing carefully. i'm looking forward to ragdance practices and the psych camp more though. hahaha and im offically a siewmai, that'll be my og name for the camp which starts tmr. and im damn happy im in blue house, cus apparently you have to be wearing shirts of your houses' colour throughout the camp, and i've just enough shirts for the camp. wah imagine im in red house. brilliant

it is one of those jobs that you wont really retain memories after you leave. and that not excluding my current job as well as my previous 2-year long occupation. and as of today i'm left with like 5 working days, evenly spread out through till mid-july. really cant wait to stop working man

guess i've to learn to love hong kong.

2009-06-23T10:05:00.002+08:00

its like im soo used to sleeping little these days, i wonder if its a good thing altogether.

finally finally, 4e1's gathering went rather smoothly haha. and the attendance was rather disappointing, along with the sentosa trip the following day. and so it seems, we cannot really expect full attendance, and that small groups are indeed more fulfilling! and dinner at marche was awesome, one of the bests. the company seriously matter! cause theres ever such off-the-world equations like

10+2 = 1
and
11+2 = 0!

i always wonder if mundane things do act in unison, with the effects of gravity.like when u feel like shitting its better to stay standing (i mean you dont really shit standing right hahaha); and so if ppl who fear getting a belly were to sleep facing up, less likely they'll get one. then this brings me to another point, that whether our physical appearance are really that important? though facts account to endless cases that justifies that statement, i still stand by the contrary. i guess if only life was like a blindfolded game, everyone's voices would be mellifluous to the ear; the intricate human touch overwhelmingly delicate, and the lack of sight deems everyone immaculate. the world would definitely be a nicer place to be in :D

i always think random thoughts are significant. the above is just one of them. and now im actually thinking wad would i do if one day i'm filthy rich. maybe i'd go into acting cus at least i could sustain myself with the wealth should my career just dies away. and maybe i would get myself a helicopter, like seriously, to go explore the world. after all the ppl who found jurassic park were on a chopper. lol.

the ideal sort of girl should be ideally ideal, for im the ideal sort of guy who needs someone as ideal as can be!ppl always ask me about the ideal type of girl that i like. i tink i's settle this once n for all here. so here it is hahaha

oh oh oh. and really looking forward to ending work! for those who know why hahhaha.

2009-06-19T15:50:00.005+08:00

my latest weapon! the broom and the dustpan! -
being the makeshift cleaner of the workplace, it just brings about glimpses of actual muses of the true-blue cleaning auntie. we admire them, for their interminable endurance, and non-existant fear of dirt and black hands. it sucks actually, for i haven held a broom for so long a day in my life (probably during ocs days), nor did i drain toilet bowls with disgusting leftovers. so much so i believe the higher echelons of the modern society need not even touch any single cleaning equipment for their entire life, since they employ people to do them these favours. how much fairness is there? the broom and the dustpan, definitely the greatest creation of all time.

5-6-7-8! and there we go again! rag dance auditions yesterday was.. aww. its the first time in my life that i probably did something dance related. and meiyi fong was there with me so it aint that bad (hahaha we dance like *losers). but it went well though and i'd be really sad if one of us didnt make it, cus the main idea is to look happy, and i thought we all smiled like there's really still tomorrow hahaha. guess i have really really really nice camp seniors, esp Weikit. cause thats probably the result of all of us getting into hall, have to thank them loads.

its like so fast, about a months time, hall starts. hmm actually it might in fact start next week. and now im relishing the jobless past, you wake up each day having to think of wad to do. humans are complaining creatures. when you're a toddler you probably complain about hunger and stuff by crying; then when you're an adolescent you complain why other adolescents have better toys; when you're a teenager you complain about studying and your parents; and finally when you're a parent you'll complain about work and family. (ok i take away the parents' part hahaha). guess everyday i'd just take a step at a time,even though in my opinion planning is extremely important, in that way you dont have too much at hand to worrry about :D

sentosa on sunday! damn excited hahaha

its like fate bounds you within this spiderweb of relationships, when its time to let go, you have to.

2009-06-16T09:21:00.005+08:00

fate churns, and like molecules of air that dissipates, friends that come and go. they reappear again some point in your life, and you cry out loud for how small the world is.

i realised msn conversations don't last, and that so much justifies how virtual the virtual world is. devoid of emotions, just plain exchange of humour. meetups are great, organising them shucks. it is when life falls back into the mundane tandem, you cherish happy times more than the cute stray cat by the road.

guess i shall not recount on the malaysia trip cause that'll probably take one whole essay.
it was great, it was fun, it was awesome. especially SPACESHOT, and finally got rid of the fear of high-level roller coaster rides.
shopping spree! have never bought that many clothes in such a short space of time. now i finally understand how girls feel, in which a sense of guilt will follow for witless spending.
its always good to for an overseas experience, but KL zouk sure is dreadful beyond imagination. i've never been in a confined space with so many people smoking, almost died the instant i stepped in. and the music is beyond dreadful haha.
and HOTEL BATHS ARE HEAVENLY!

mymy. officially im accepted into Kent Ridge Hall! quite elated. cant help but hope july comes, for it is when work ends and true enjoyment sets in..

2009-06-08T12:57:00.005+08:00

i woke up this morning, its like OHNO. it was so bright i thought i was terribly late for work. i felt like puking cause of many nights of insufficient sleep, maybe i'm pregnant. but i was very happy last night, i duno why.

KR Camp Blue Blood. it was a BLAST i didnt expect myself to have a great time. hahaha i truly did not regret a second of it (except maybe meal times; especially sp games hahaha). pictures are on facebook!

so funny! today during lunch this guy from the philippines jus came to sit down with me (i was eating alone). and we just talk cock for a full half n hour. haha i always thought philippinos are friendly ppl, cus i just met a senior during the kr camp and she's really nice to talk to haha. i just realised i've been working with myanmar workers for the past week. they were really nice and hardworking too, but my point is rather about the plight of these people and they are working their asses off. one of them hold a degree, and probably due to the political situation there, he's working as a cleaner. omg, and his english is good!

what is life?

phase after phase

the magic of it all never seem to fade

like the shade of charcoal,

and the glow off the surface of the moon.

what happens when life ceases

the pretty flowers wilt

bringing hailstorms of tears that drowns deserts.

Its as frail as paper

as weak as the dying heartbeat

but the search for love betters it

like how plants seek the sun

to seek for a better tmr.

Unwittingly the seeds prosper

and finally found new meaning in life.

2009-06-02T23:10:00.002+08:00

i'm really interested to know the image of myself 30 years from now. will i be fat with a pot-belly, still as thin as if skin and bones. and that would accompanied by weekdays working behind the desk with no form of exercise, and weekends spent with friends and family. gosh

and so the dumpling festival came and past, and i didnt get a chance to taste a single one. then this morning came the chance. cleaning auntie Lee told me that she's heating up a Ba Zhang for me, and so i waited in anticipation. then came the burning smell, and then we realised the auntie Lee placed a metal pot together with the dumpling in the oven. and so, there was no ba zhang for me after all, and i was left with the stench that stank up the entire office the entire morning. hahaha

two days to camp. woo

2009-06-01T22:52:00.005+08:00

finally finally. the adidas sundown event's finally over. it was clearly disappointing cause the admin was really lacklustre and i was really glad i didnt take part in the full marathon. the race was over when this cute little old couple walked past and the woman asked whats with the crowd, in quite broken chinese. and obviously we replied in chinese too. then bra said its a running event organised by Adidas. then the woman replied, 'Aa-li-sa??' hahaha i really nearly broke into laughter. ok stop being bad please.

technically, i'm currently employed, and i'm doing the dirtiest job ever -drying up toilet bowls.

its like miles and miles away, the not-so-distant future. as we succumb to more of these post-work trauma we seem to anticipate more about what lies ahead of you. and YES I AM DEARLY ANTICIPATING.

2009-05-26T08:55:00.002+08:00

yest. lunched with tee-four and lynette at some dimsum place. it was the first time having tried so many new dishes i suddenly felt dimsum was the best creation on Earth haha. i remember them telling me that in Hong Kong, dimsum is served without chilli sauce. awww, how can dimsum go without chilli. then i said i'll bring chilli sauce with me over to Hong Kong and use it for my dimsum treats, then they all laughed. i wonder wads so funny hahaha.

guess after all its confirmed, i'll be going to hk in july with my family, and of course the wish of enjoying one-time-good-one before uni commences shall be fulfilled there and then. then yest ilyana told me there'll be a psych camp coming up in july too, been wanting to go for that. and that meant, from june till july, i'll be going overseas two times, having three camps, while juggling work and play. wah thats honto ni quite a menacing thought. i dont even know how to break this news to my boss hahah i tink he'll get a shock. i might as well don't work anymore hahaha

one day if i were to become minister for home affairs, i'll make it compulsory for HDB blocks and neighbourhoods to have orientation camps too. then there'll be like inter-block games kinda thing it'll be so interesting. somehow i feel that breaking the ice among neighbours is important beyond the scope of just being a friendly community, but also in times of instability people could be there to help you. its like gone were those days where our ancestors used to stay in kampongs they know everyone's names in the village. even now at the very most its only the exchanging of smiles that is coherent in our generation, but i still relish the thought of a neighbour taking time to simply stop and exchange more than the formal pleasantries, that that is something i'm looking for in life.

omg its only tuesday O,O

2009-05-22T14:50:00.002+08:00

indifference is like so powerful a tool, it is able to force one to change decisions or to even take sides. effective intellectual utilisation for instance, could yield interesting results, and such is the case even among countries dating way back, the Cold War and state embargoes for example. my take here is that of human-to-human relations, and i feel that it is ever so important for one to maintain ties, or at the very least make a distinct effort towards achieving that. i'm actually talking about this cause i came across people who take that for granted, cause i believe sometimes even a simple greeting or a hint of smile could actually enhance the bond between two people, especially so in a confined place like at work where u see each other every other day. its just so annoying cause people just wouldnt bother, as a matter of fact it simply just translates to being antisocial. please change, cause there really isnt any boundaries with regards to issues like this.

it was just days ago when there was a glimmer of hope, that i could finally go to Tokyo after an awesome deal surfaced in the papers. but the flu situation seem to be turning really bad, and the whole plan was put away in just only two days. ohwell, i would most likely still be travelling with my family in july, so that's somewhat great too.can't wait.

in just another week it'd be the end of may already, how quick. and in a flash it would be august 3. start of university, a new beginning.

2009-05-19T09:29:00.002+08:00

the alarm rang, heralding yet another dreadful work day. the enthusiasm of it all seem to be draining away like a running tap, and i seem to be unable to get up on time lately. and that is really, really bad.

i spoke to a taxi-driver yesterday, and he was telling me that business was really bad, including yesterday and the day before. it was 12 midnight and whilst complaining to myself that the time exactly read 12:03am (i failed to make it to a cab before the midnight charge timing), it doesn't really matter to the driver cause he was just glad he got his first customer in over an hour. in order to support his family, he had to pack up at around 2am, go home to rest and wake up again at about 5am to get ready for his other job for the day. the cycle repeats where he only gets three to four hours of sleep each night, and i thought it was really noble of him to slog so hard, for a better tomorrow, for his family.

to listen to others' stories, its like reality checks, to learn the misadventures of people, and how tough life can actually be. and then we learn to appreciate and cherish what we have, for it is already a blessing in itself. i enjoy such conversations, as we exchange experiences, advice and feedback. the most valuable of it all, is that we can reflect upon ourself and look towards being a better person.

i always imagine God is actively playing a game of Sims, where he have huge populations to take care of, in which i believe he has already done a great job. and just for a matter of fun and merry, he had chosen to put some of us in difficult positions, to test our resolve and hence how we solve problems. as such, it is a cruel game to engage in. as seen in the present world, wars are being fought over the jurisdiction of nuclear power, over independance of a state or country. its like the H1N1 community attempting to wage a mighty war against the human race.

maybe its just not that simple..

2009-05-15T11:33:00.002+08:00

extracted from the papers today.

"Global warming is the biggest public health threat of the 21st century, eclipsing infectious diseases, water shortages and poverty..

The phenomemom will be felt first in the developing world. A warmer planet will flood cities, leading to mass migration of coastal-dwelling residents and triggering wars as resources such as food and water become scarcer.. Rising temperatures will spread diseases like malaria and increase deaths from flooding, drought and more intense storms."

i duno but i feel that the damage has already been done. no matter how hard the World is trying, to reduce the emmision of greenhouse gases, to reduce the use of fossil fuels and so on, these are desperate measures. what the world should do now is to put a stop to the unnecessary fighting, such as the war between the Taliban and Pakistan, Sri Lanka and the Tamil Tigers, and fully concentrate on saving the already dying Earth. unless there is a full-fledged plan to shift the human race to Mars and start afresh, maybe the fighting could carry on.

the world is becoming crazier, just read on the papers that this uncle was awarded 12 strokes of the cane and an insane jail term for preying on a 7-year old boy, luring him into a public toilet and perform oral sex on him. he's just a driver-cum-deliveryman whom i tink earns a meagre income barely able to support himself. all the more he should concentrate on working harder perhaps to give his family a better life, rather than rewarding himself to some feast thats so wrong even just to harbour thoughts about it. wad the govt could do is probably adopt wad some other country is doing (i forgot which), allowing the offender wear a shirt describing his crime whilst sweeping the streets. that, just for the sake of his reputation alone, could serve as a deterrent measure already.

TGIF! THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY

2009-05-14T10:49:00.002+08:00

hey. its been a long time... ... ... ... .. .

nothing much with life lately. just that the most significant thing that happened was probably incidences whereby the security at the mrt station asked to check my bag twice in two consecutive days. the second time i jus got abit irritated so i asked the lady, 'so its is until recently that you guys step up security..' and she replied 'uh..' then i said, 'oh cus last time during army i used to carry a super huge bag, and its black, but no one checks me.' and she just smiled. haha that just sums up

yesterday was the first time i turned on my air-condition in five months. its the heat thats getting unbearable, rendering me trouble falling me asleep. then lately, i've trouble waking up as well lol brrr. i cant wait for soccer on sat, then tennis on sun! i've been wondering, is there some power formula to boost my stamina. my running has been like stagnant and its so hard to take a step up a whole new level. haha 45minutes for 10km, my aim for Sundown :D

some nostalgia. been thinking about bits and pieces of the past, and the ocs song struck me, cause we used to sing it like mad. might as well write it down here case i forget the lyrics thirty years down the road. well lock in those

we come from many places,
all across the land.
with many different races,
together hand-in-hand.
united we stand, divided we fall,
ready to serve our Nation's call.
WE COME FROM OCS, WE ARE THE VERY BEST
leading with leadership and pride.
whereever we go, we will always know,
our spirit is forever more~

the lyrics are kinda propagandish i realised hahaha.

ohman, i forgot to talk about last fri. keru's birthday celebration. it was a fun night, and we all laughed like crazy. hah

Ps: imeem sucks man

2009-05-10T00:16:00.007+08:00

saw a tiny little rat scuttling across a bare grass patch, into the safety of the dark and damp. its a symbolism of new life, reproduction and stuff. yet disease carriers they are, and a tinge of their urine could end even one's life. so wad's your perspective?

i guess there's always a time when you actually resemble your parents, and that is when you get old. even if nobody passed that remark when you were young, and even if you much-ly wished it would never happen. hahaha

sigh, and who says affluence can be judged by the amount of stuff in your refrigerator. my fridge is filled, but its the other way round sadly hahaha.

i finally met up with ivan! haha finally. somehow i really feel the need to kagebushin, if you know wad the hell it means, so that i can be at two places at one time. hahha i swear my birthday would have the lamest theme, if i ever celebrate it. then everyone will have to crack their heads on how to dress themselves up. lol

i was reading my blog entries from long long ago, many posts were dedicated to complaining about studying, yet right now it is like the stark opposite, in that i can't wait for school to commence. examinations don't seem like the worst thing that can happen anymore, after the completion of National Service. i will welcome all the piling mountains books and notes with open arms WAHAHA. a tad too early to say haha

'No lah where got care only about your grades? We also look at things like your college name.. If you are from Raffles, you're definitely it! If you are from Temasek, we'll think about it ... If you are from Tampines, you can forget about it... If you are from Serangoon, huh? Ser-ran-ghoon?' i don't remember quoting it from where, but i feel that elitism is being practised so much here, that late bloomers cant seem to catch up. there are opportunities, but often just too late. its just these random unfairness that futile cries are being called out, yet often unheard

WE MUST live life as fulfilling as possible, when we die, and years drone on, you are just a forgotten soul, a past. so do what you can while young. when we grow old, and technology improves, whether it'll be like in the past when our parents duno anything about technology, and when they have absolutely no idea 50years down the road metals as robots could be so easily made and manipulated and computers so hard to comtemplate. probably in the future another phase of mutation takes place and there'll be mutants

we, must learn not to procrastinate.

2009-05-07T10:03:00.003+08:00

the chief weakness of humans would probably be that of finding motivation. its hard. a man who wishes to lose weight, often finds himself lacking the motivation to exercise. a delinquent perhaps couldnt find any motivation to seek self-improvement. we speak of motivational workshops, but yet we often find it hard to approach these alternatives, or rather he cant find anymore motivation in his quest of acquiring motivation. it is often when people are on the verge of sinking into dire straits that he really tries his best; like when a diabetes patient finally realises the importance of eating healthily and puts in effort, putting aside his oily and salty past. we should be glad 'faith' exists, for should the American president lose this even, gone will the world be, with the wind.

toilets are the most important place in the world. it is the safest place you can hide when there are pursuers, cause you can satisfy all your needs in there; you can drink water, shower, piss and shit in there, so i'm glad i've a toilet in my workplace and at home. toilets must be clean to leave a good experience, so please keep public toilets clean and dry. wahaha

i wonder, which is more fulfilling, to compare my participation in a Commissioning Parade, our nation's third most prestigious parade, or helping an old man who had difficulty getting off his bicycle, pick up his cap. i think i'd choose the latter, hahh

emoticons are really quite unimaginable, like xD. i'd never know how is it possible to to cross the eyes like that. hahah then tk told me there's a one-eyed one 0) hahaha amazing

really really, cant wait for the week to end.

2009-05-05T15:48:00.005+08:00

OMG today's only wednesday, and i'm quite shaggy already.d a m n

and the taxi driver on saturday asked me,
Driver: so.. you still studying arh?
Me: uh, i've just finished army not long ago, waiting for uni..
Driver: wah, dont look like leh, you look so young

some draggy silence. he seemed damn surprised, well he isn't the first. and now i wonder whether it is a good or bad thing to not look your age. its good in way, to be able to pass off as a kid sometimes but.. guess there's not only just CCC (civilian conversion cse) to go through after army, but some adult conversion course for that matter. after all, the transition from a teen to an adult is a gradual thing, and all i know is that to enjoy that process thoroughly, that is the best part

i really think i might need a pensieve, cause memories are such an inexplicable part of one's being and true self, that one diagnosed with severe amnesia often find no more meaning to live on apart from being a hindrance to others. i think that its such a waste to forget so much about the past, and maybe its in part due to some inheritance of poor memory.. my pri sch life, as far as i can remember, is nowhere near forgettable, and i seriously credit this inability to remember much about eight-nine years ago to the lack of pictures. after all pictures do tell a thousand words, i truly tink that there is no such thing as camera-shy. and photographs have so vastly integrated into our lives that there's no way to avoid it anymore. no wait, why should we be even avoiding...

i feel that animals are being so wrongly judged these days, they have ended victims of abuse of all sorts and well, who can they complain to. evolution has brought us to where we are now, and our superior intellectual advantage have made us the mightiest of species in the animal kingdom, however we seem to have forgotten our roots from long ago ancient times. it is virtually impossible already not to find any trace of development at any corner of the earth, the animals are suffering. i've seen a video of dogs and cats being skinned alive jus for their fur; seals being hooked up by hunters, through the head. its just gruesome. govts should seriously watch these videos and take a stand to it, haha i were the president of a country, that would be one of my priorities

if the world were to come together, definitely music would reach another level. this video combines western and chinese

an incredibly heavenly piece, combining the piano, violin, erhu and guzheng. imagine indian and african instruments coming together to form an orchestra haha.awesome

speaking of indians, i always thought they have really cool, long names. i dont mind having one haha, maybe like kirthanaresh raksha anand. then you could be called kirtha, naresh, raksha and anand! hahaha

the 10km sundown race is approaching! gotta start training soon. in fact i just started hha. gotta work ciao

2009-04-30T08:57:00.003+08:00

i always think of rain as heaven's tears. whenever it rains, heaven is unhappy.

i feel there's a need to address the issue with regards to public transport. apparently there are not enough seats to satisfy everyone, and the frequency of it definitely should be improved. you see senior citizens swaying about in buses due to the lack of seats and standing space, with reckless drivers thinking the people on board are having a good time together haha. the people are unhappy too, thats why heaven is unhappy. thats why its raining

animals and plants are dying for us. i think its cruel to eat meat, thats why there are vegetarians in this world. but plants have a life too, and we're eating plants. so we might as well not eat anymore. my boss told me, the swine flu is like coffee 3-in-1. the swine flu, is human flu, bird's flu and pig's flu combined, HA HA

2009-04-27T10:17:00.009+08:00

i always didnt know actors and actresses have such huge fanbases as compared to music artists, until the Star Awards two nights ago i saw for myself jubilant fans cheering for their idols. then i thought, wad would i say if i got an award, apart from those pleasantries.. "i want to thank my mom, my dad, my family. my turtle, the trees outside photosynthesizing that gave me oxygen, my water heater for giving me warm water when i'm cold, my bed for withstanding my body's odour every night, my neighbour, my bicycle, obama for winning the US Elections... ohno, not enough time left. most importantly i wanna thank my mom, my dad, my turtle .." hahaha damn cock

somehow organisms such as ants, birds, should deserve much more praise and respect, at least from us humans, whose brains are so immensely developed that they invented computers and robots. yet we humans are the cause for the problems faced in the world attributed to this indiscrimate misuse of the effects of evolution bestowed upon us. we do cruel, malevolent acts of injustice that can never be justified. only recently some idiot invented this application on the iPhone, where u must shake the phone hard and there'll be this image of a baby cringing and obviously being tormented. the faster you kill the baby (by obtaining two red crosses over the baby's eyes) the better you are cus there's a stopclock at the top of the screen. i think that person should just go die

society progresses, more acts GTAstyle are also being committed, and the most shocking thing is that some of the culprits are so young. you see students bringing a weapon to school and performing trigger happy. of course attribution to mental mishaps might somehow less the severity of each incident, but its the loss of lives that is the crux of this entire debate. mayb govts should do more haha

yahah it was only days ago i overheard a conversation on the way back among a group of poly students speaking of army. it seems only like yesterday, the first day of army, as i watch my hair being shaved off my head along with the rest. somehow i still thought that two years was kinda time wasted, and i think the only most valuable thing i've taken away from national service is that now i fold my blankets and tidy up my bed every other morning. hahaha

i always believed in reincarnation, and i hope that at some point in everyone's life his past life should be revealed to him in some way or other, for the purposes of self-improvement and self-reflection that is. unless your past life is some budget animal, haha then..

a friend told me this, that she doesnt know why people have to insert so many smileys into a conversation, when the situation doesnt even calls for it. i thought that it was very true, though i myself usually use them when i really mean it. the rise of emoticons and virtual conversations have since reduced the ability to decipher emotions so drastically that misunderstandings and often misled conclusions result, and the whole point of a relationship between two people is undermined, in my opinion. put aside convenience where maybe a text message could really come in handy in inapt and awkward circumstances, but there are times u forget to reply, and the other party just waits, sometimes to no avail. gone were those, handphones were not so commonplace, that we have to use our housephone to call friends, and ask about homework and stuff

everywhere i go, i'd always leave a trace of me behind.

2009-04-24T10:57:00.004+08:00

was taking the escalator down to harbourfront mrt yesterday, and to my surprise this man turned to look at me and smiled. for a moment i wondered who he was.. it was an awkward few minutes, i just chatted with him not knowing who he was, then OH I REALISED WHO HE WAS when we were about to part ways

i delved deeper into this particular community, largely comprising of the elderly or the uneducated, just to realise how tough their lives actually was. 'THE CLEANING AUNTIES of SINGAPORE', so vastly found in hawker centres and coffee shops slogging their lives away all but seem like pitiful scenes found in the usual lower-end spectrum of our very much perfect society. i was taken aback to the true emotions concealed within them, as i came across cleaners who just turn and walk away even after i said 'thank you'. the worst being one auntie muttering some crap under her breath after clearing up my table. then after i thanked her, she muttered some more and walked away showing no sign of acknowledgement. i just feel that these people should be treated with more respect, they are just one bunch of suffering souls feeling unjust. our society is tainted, its just not as good as it seem to be

'i felt that it was time, it was time to leave the comfort zone that had been harbouring me the past two weeks. i wriggled with all my might trying to break free of the tangle of disgusting stuff all over me. pushing as hard as i could and finally some progress! my head was out as i caught my first glimpse of the outside world. wooh the space that was in front of my eyes interminable as thoughts of the coming liberty to explore filled my mind. with one last mighty push, i was out! the sudden gush of cool liquid almost overwhelmed me as i allowed this new medium to pass through my gills. my first breath! my first taste of life..'

-adapted from 'The Chronicles of the Fish' by darren

2009-04-22T10:17:00.002+08:00

dreams are so largely perceived as something that is baseless, yet there are people who fail to realise that, or worst still doubt their own innate ability to dream, which end result could just be devastating. dare to dream big, live up to it for the good of yourself, and for all of mankind.

i duno its just me, or my dad's genes or the weather, seems like it takes a super long time for me to fall asleep at night, even though i'm already 'shagg until laosai', that in part contributes to greater fatigue the next day. the weather is so hot lately, and it never fails to remind after leaving traces of perspiration on you just by walking across the road to grab a snack. i duno but the world seems a hotter place now, the media should be addressing this, oh but wait, what much can they say? 'oh yes, the world is ending soon, hah'

haha guess most out there have seen the funeral ad, i thought it was really well done; love your family, before its too late hahaha you guys should go listen to the mr brown's version, you're retarded if you dont laugh
http://www.mrbrownshow.com/2009/04/10/the-mrbrown-show-funeral-too/

mr brown show! somehow ironically thats the best thing that happened this morning i really would have laughed out loud if not for there being people around in the office. singapore does have talent, hahaha.

omg, i really need a public holiday.

2009-04-19T00:21:00.003+08:00

the worst day of brilliant, relentless sunshine.

to live in contentment and fulfilled happiness, that is wad life is about.

roses are red;
violets are blue.
one thing to do,
three words for you,
*i ____ you.

2009-04-17T09:54:00.002+08:00

went to get doreen's present with wanqing and kangting. yt pangsehhed me. haha it was kinda.. walking around the females' section of shops. and then 'girl talk' over dinner, which was pretty interesting hahahaha

its time to move on i guess. i'm glad i've finally know what i wanna do and put my heart and soul to it. after all its a path i choose to take, that i shall fulfill based on how motivated i am =D

nothin much's happening in my life right now. so theres no need for any updates on my life, still the same old wake-up-early-sleep-late kinda life, which is pretty much happening its own unique way. let me take this time to educate you how to deal with someone farting in a public place, since i'm quite free right now

1. if the sound can be heard, pretty much the people around you would have heard it as well. so if you wanna make a fool out of that person (i know he might be having one of his worst runs of diarrhoea but who cares) simply just stare at him into his eyes, and count to three. thats enough for EVERYONE to know he's the culprit

2. somehow if the sound could be heard, usually it aint a smelly one. and so, if you dont hear anything, but smell an odour that's similar to something taken out of the garbage, yes you guessed it. someone has farted :D and as they call it, the 'silent killer'. usually if you're not the culprit, you don't have to be scared, well then its spot-the-culprit time! look around and see who has the guiltiest countenance in the vicinity, be quick or else the train's aircondition would soon dissipate the smell. see someone guilty? stare at him

3. if the fart's loud and smelly, you can probably count on the expired onions he have indulged in last night. wooohoo, you dont have to do anything! cause there will probably be ppl staring at him already

4. rule NO. 4. if the culprit's a.. girl. pretend nth's happened :D

5. wad if you're the culprit. wahhha its all up to your own creativity. well i dont usually fart in public so i dont know. you could probably pretend to sleep, or start staring at ppl to make it seem like you're not the one (though if theres something pungent about you, there's no way you can escape man)

6. good luck!

jaa, thats all for today. have fun BYEEEEE

2009-04-10T23:59:00.005+08:00

THE FUNNIEST MOVIE OF THE MONTH! in my opinion very meaningful, yes it conveyed more than just the message from delegates of the stereotyped community, and definitely provided more laughs than i had since the start of the month. beauty truly is being judged as such a wholesome thing these days its ruining lives, as portrayed in the show. and such is the case in Japan and Korea that its commonplace parents give their dear girls a makeover in terms of cosmetic surgery as a coming-of-age present, results couldn't be reversed though. what can be more than facing a conscience of not being your true self for the rest of your life. i always believed in inner beauty, there's nothing so great about a supermodel, when the word 'filial piety' isnt even in her dictionary

everyone has to do a part in repudiating stereotypes, for it is a dent in this world which is only getting ever so deep, unless someone seriously steps up and puts an end to it

then there's this thing about over-confidence vs complacency, a burning question between its similarities. basically being over-confident displays a biased mannerism towards something that is imminent, which often lead to a misjudgment in their own ability, thereby leading to failure; complacency, or the act of being complacent, is a self-indulged security in oneself whilst being oblivious to reality, thereby also leading to failure. thats basically being my point of view, being that one only has to look into the mirror and think about one's own flaws and mistakes in life, that after which you know that no one is is the best or perfect. of course, one must be confident with himself

yes i fell in love with them. i mean, when was the last time you heard such a catchy tune that is constantly ringing in your mind?

had a really great chat with wanqing and zhiwei last night, and i feel that it is such moments that inject meaning into my life, as much so with a simple hour sitting down with my mom, watching our very own local drama on television

when is it that i am going to start being serious with myself?

2009-04-08T10:36:00.004+08:00

so far bakabra and eugene has talked about meepok. now's my turn.

you dont have to always talk about death to speak of heaven, for a serving of meepok and simpang's tehpeng sends you up there. a supreme form of euphoria. to find a place that serves the best meepok and tehpeng, now that's a dream

2009-04-06T11:06:00.000+08:00

YESSSSSSS. COMPLETE.

Its a strange thing,
love is.

2009-04-02T09:48:00.005+08:00

still in the midst of adjusting to a new lifestyle
i cant believe i actually allowed April Fools' to past
without doing anything stupid

work's fine, and there isn't any room for me to agree that working sucks cause it simply sucks the life out of you. some part of me really want school to start soon, though i really think i would start complaining too when schoolwork starts piling up lol

this, was my first time being successful in doing a mirror shot, with a camera. i was a happy man afterwhich

sometimes i wish i was a superhuman, so that i could take up multiple jobs, so that i could save more money! :d

have finished watching the entire harry potter series once more, awesome awesome awesome. if only magic exists... the first thing i would do would be to grab my broomstick and try to fly. then definitely try to turn into an animal. there's so much you could do! there isn't even a need for torchlights anymore. its just great

three birthdays already i've attended last week.oh when will my turn come? i really dont know should i celebrate or not haha.sucks laa

the clock ticks, as i watch its second-hand perform its millionth cycle round its axis, nvm im just hoping time could just speed past through the day, even though i stick to my stand that the amount of time a day just isn't enough for me to do wad i reckon is important. surely nature has made it this way, such that we could never get the best out of everything, and i always believe in reaping the rewards of my own labour. and we've all grown up, friends, siblings, cousins; we should all have been enlightened by the fact that our hard work now determines our future, how i wish i could be young again

2009-03-27T01:09:00.002+08:00

the feeling of getting over an illness was great, it was like a war has ended. and then i thought if the army white blood cells were to wage a war against the bacteria, who actually commands them. sometimes i think its good to remind, that theres no indefinite immunity against everything and anything, i myself jus fell ill all of a sudden ..

i always feel that dreams shouldn't be taken for granted, for it is the very periods our innermost are unguarded and exposed, or rather, the innate nature of it allows it to be that way. we should then pen down whatever is in our dreams, to not let it slip away like it always do moments after rise and shine. reading these compilations years after, it would be like a full-fledged fairy tale story

not that thinking big is bad all the time, after all it is the basis of all but our future

2009-03-21T00:46:00.002+08:00

that short spell at the cage yesterday was great great great. been so long since my fitness was put to the test. it was really good playing again, and its funny somehow this was the first real meet-up since commissioning..

i witnessed a hideously disgusting act today on the train. this lady she was scratching.. starting from her neck, then down, to her armpit. she was wearing a sleeveless top so... scratched for a full minute. it just reveals how much ppl care about hygiene cause i bet she'd just use the same hands for food later.no washing

Eusoff Hall Dance Production 2009 just now! was great but too bad, no pictures. theres alot of hype going on about university, but somehow people seem to produce the contrary of it being the best time of one educational path, what with all the projects and insufficient time to study. thats quite an unwelcoming thought

really, i need nus to confirm my job real soon. it seems i've been forking out with no returns. sometimes i feel the distribution of wealth, requires a little more attention there. the needy, truly require aid and thats a fact. hope the govt can do more

its a test.

2009-03-16T08:05:00.003+08:00

it all but summed up a busy week. friday night soccer was great. NUS open house was great. mahjong at chris's place was great. her family was great. ECHO PLATOON 3'S CHALET was great. old changi hospital was great. all great in their respective ways. coming up would be birthdays, birthdays and birthdays. sigh, savings being splashed out so constantly with no returns, that at least for the time being. really hope i get confirmation for the job soon, like really soon

yesterday was MARCH THE 15TH, omg its been one year, since the day of commissioning. just realised it yesterday as well. wah time really flies

eugene suggested a plan, a very good one in fact. a studying timetable should be in place soon, and all i could wish for is that i follow it which is something so inherently hard from the start. if only grades were that easy to obtain haha

sometimes we are envious of people, and i guess somehow when one goes beyond the point of extreme envy it leads to jealousy and malevolence, thats when things get out of hand. we see incidences like this, day in and out, and it really proves a point that people just turn and walk away without correcting them, since these people just go on and commit mistakes over and over again. its all human nature, to stay out of trouble, however i still stand by the chinese idiom, that onlookers usually have the clearer picture of whats happening, as compared to the person in the thick of the situation. guess sometimes u just have to believe that everything that has happened happened for a reason, comparing doesn't really yield results. and sometimes just a scintilla of faith in a person might work wonders

walao shagg until laosai, gonna hit the bed soon!!

one day i'll install speakers in my bathroom

2009-03-07T20:55:00.004+08:00

it seemed as if the world revolved around her, and that was all it mattered. that's all part and parcel of growing up. to think how fast time flies, its frightening to know one day all this would just end..

2009-03-05T00:41:00.003+08:00

i'm sitting on a fence again, or rather, i was placed there. two jobs pending just like tat. really hope for the mid of march to come

i find the number of hours in a day ain't really enough. its like so fast, the sun sets and the moon calls. and if only an entire lifetime could be expressed within the confines of a crystal ball, there wouldn't be so much thinking to do.

there he sits on his armchair, abreast of the comforts of his bed. the time reads 3.30am on his clock. there upon his shoulders his internal struggle materializes, an angel white as cotton on his right, a devil his left. they were hurling words at each other, and there he was sure he was hearing things..

2009-02-27T15:35:00.002+08:00

Its been so long!since i last blogged here.so long that i've decided with a new outlook. haha i have to thank christie for complaining that she cant read my blog on her mac if not i'm really lazy to change the skin, what more personalising it.haha and also special mention eugene reiterating it can be done. So much have changed over the past months i could only say time had been the sole culprit, both good and bad, unprecedented and uncalled for. ORD wasn't as wholesome as what i thought it to be, what with the sudden lost of income, though the element of euphoria could never be described; all guys will know haha. Its a critical moment as well, in terms of having offically re-attained the title of Mr, i realised that the world would not allow you to remain a kid forever, crying over spilled milk. Its time i tackle problems on my own, as if traversing the narrows of a maze, i'll have to account of my turning right or left. Most importantly, i couldn't just stay put and not do anything.

I would say army wasn't that bad after all. For two years of my life, it was actually rather fulfilling. and my tour as an officer in iti, having to deal with reservists really exposed me, though there were really distasteful moments. it all but moulded me into who i am now. and i really want to thank all my superiors, warrant officers, jianzhi, xiao guang, zhiwei, aloysius, charles kaidick faiz, and the others who have made my stay memorable.

Its a time of moving on, and i'm glad with the recent spate of meet-ups with friends, surprisingly some as long as five years, to see that they have all progressed in life, some having massive dreams, which is good. And its kinda sad seeing friends leave for further studies, maybe its that sense of attachment thats present in friendships, and i hope it could continue for as far as my legs would allow me to continue standing.

A job is what i need now, hmm and thats the first step of the pursue of my dreams. like i said before, i really hope to travel the world one day, the first on the list Japan. henceforth i've to really start saving. Quite happy that at least i've two jobs pending, both paying quite well. the next thing would be studies. yes i'm looking forward to it, i really am.

the bells rang so abruptly it startled me, heralding yet another frenzy of pandemonium at every corner of the compound, like that of an ant's nest. it was a feeling as if a war has ended, and like an anxious bee, buzzing out in search of something of rejuvenation, amongst few hundred of my kind. it was a warm feeling altogether, knowing that many others could share similar thoughts at one particular time. it was, recess time.
I remember so clearly the funs of the past, i reminisce those times in school, teachers ever-present by your side, and you'll come to realise, gone were those days, and how much you could have cherished the past more.

2009-02-01T01:25:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i feel that those things that were not told to us when we were young, as what the adults always say, 'you'll learn when you grow up', is it too late that these things only became sensible to us now? admidst all those shrugging shoulders in the past, i feel its just a back-firing quest in saving the hassle of meaningless explanation. we learn as we grow, and all else will fail if this basic platform of learning is crushed by these simple acts of ignorance.so parents, please tell us things!

there are so many things i've taken a liking to, it could be long-term, or short. it seems that only disappointment beckons if you put effort into achieving those ends. it should be instead, reasoning out to weigh the priorities, whether i should even put emphasis on it in the first place. yes

i was on the train today, and i saw this lady intently holding on to a book and reading it, with her daughter beside, the book titled, 'Puberty and Growing Up'. haha then i thought, is that really necessary, cause i tink the daughter is in the better position explaning stuff to the mom. but the again, the kid looked only about 12 years old, lol

and so it ended, owatta da, cny 09'. and it seems funny i didnt meet relatives from my mom's side at all, just because time wasn't on our side, and of course, mochiron, the red packets didn't come along as well. it was so long ago, about six months ago, that i was so looking forward to ord, and now the feelings i have is just so mixed. neither happy nor sad. rather, i was looking forward to cny more for this, cause it means i have just a handful of days left to that very day. as of now, yes, a handful of days left, WOOOOHOOOO. okbye

2009-01-28T00:38:00.002+08:00

新年快乐！好期待这时候的到来喔！而且下星期，２月６日就快到了，真的真的好开心。

岁月随着地球旋转着。多么希望时间能暂停在这一刻，把所有美好的回忆与时光都挽留下来。此时我也算过得相当快乐，已没什么好埋怨的了。也好久没有这么不堪一击的时侯了，只多么希望她能向我有些答复。。。

再见了！在此祝大家所有愿望都能实现，新年快乐！